Friday 28 May 2010


I wonder today
As here I stand...
A bit lonely, a lot scared
In an unknown land
My thoughts fly
They love to be here
I want to reach out to someone
But I don’t know to look where!
Even in the bright light
I sense the darkness within...
I smile all times
But there’s this feeling I miss something
My heart wants to trust again
But is scared to do so
I want the child within to go free
But cannot, why I don’t know!!!
I want to talk, but I fear the words that will come
I want to say so much...
But only through ink I can express some...
Sitting here wondering
I let out a sigh.....
I am surrounded by my friends, my family
Yet so alone I find myself, I don’t know why?...

Monday 17 May 2010

The inner noise the empty words


Heart, love, eyes, mind
Discover, feel, lost, find
Build, break, hate, kiss
Longing, need, close, miss
Morning, evening, night, day
Fears, tears, touch, faraway
Sun, moon, water, fire
Sadness, pain, want, desire
Words, thoughts, meanings, kind
Light, vision, night, blind
The wind , the sun, the waves, the sea
The loneliness, the craving, us both, but now only me
But now only me....

How do I describe this pain…?
This longing for you…?
The want, the desire…
The kiss, the touch…
The emotions, the feel…
The need of your words
The sweet nothings in my ears…

How do I describe this pain…?
The eyes, their tears
The smile their cheers…
Walking together
Holding hands…
The presence,
Now there is just an empty space

How do I describe this pain…?
When I see u with her
And I will have to smile
Through all my tears…
For I cannot show you
How I really feel!

How do I describe this pain…?
When I will see you
Holding her hand
Looking in her eyes…
The same way you looked in mine
With emotions that I thought
Were only there for me

How do I describe this pain…?
When I see you touch her
How do I tell myself to be fine?
You told me, it’s never too late
To tell someone how you feel
But I cannot tell you now
How I feel about you…

How do I describe this pain…?
When I have to act…
As if nothing happened
How do I explain myself?
Questions arise …
To which answers I have none…
And it hurts…
For I really don’t know
How do I describe this pain…!!!

Sunday 16 May 2010

The heart cries…

For reasons it cannot disclose…

Smiles mask the tears…

For reasons it alone knows…


It tells me not….

Why the tears flow…?

It frowns a lot

The smile too, has lost its glow


The sad eyes stare

Sore and all red

Into nothingness with despair

Expressions all dead


Just a smile…

Remains on the face

It will be there awhile

And shall leave without a trace


All that shall remain …

In my heart is emptiness…

A bit of sadness again…

And a whole lot of loneliness…


A flicker of hope

Lights up but soon dies

I don’t know how my heart shall cope

In the world of deceit and lies…


I want it to smile again

For tears many it has seen

I want for it no more pain

But a love true and a beginning serene

Tuesday 4 May 2010

The man for me

Over a small talk

I was asked by my friend

With what type of a man

Would I, my life, like to spend?

I thought for a while

And then I smiled

And as I described to him

I could feel my heart go wild

I want someone

Who knows how to smile

To make every moment together

A memory worthwhile

Someone whom I can trust

Right from the start

Someone who still guards

The child in his heart

Someone who has...

That mischievous twinkle in his eyes

His feet firm on the ground

Yet aims for the skies

Money, yes

But it matters not that much

Who without talking

Can say a thousand things with his touch

Someone who loves

The cuisine of the world

And sometimes with a book

Stay under the blankets all day curled

Someone who is not afraid

Of something new to learn

Or for little things in life

Show his concern

Someone who in little things

Finds beauty

Someone who never

Runs away from his duty

Someone who knows what a family is

And what he wants his to be

Someone who is not afraid to share

His sorrows, feeling and emotions with me

Someone who knows

How to have fun

And at the end of the day

Love to drink wine and stare at the setting sun

Someone who understands me

Without me having it, to aloud say

Someone with whom

I’d love to end and begin my every day

Someone who loves music

And to walk on wet sand

Someone who will always be there

To hold my hand

There are many more things

That I search in my man

Sometimes I think it’s impossible to find him

But I hope someday I can...

Find that someone

Who knows how to live his life

And if everything goes well, then someday

We shall be together as man and wife...

Friday 23 April 2010

Invisible I am....

Invisible to the world
Invisible to all around
But me. for I can see myself
To what I was
To what I have become
A failure.... A success???...
Just another face in the crowd
A face amongst the thousands around me???...

Invisible to the world
Invisible to all around
But not to the person I see in the mirror
Day in day out, I see myself change
I am getting invisible day by day
In a world where I want to be someone
A face not lost in the crowd
A face welcomed with applause
But I continue to be invisible

Invisible to the world
Invisible to all around
But then again I think...
What will I do being visible?
Strive to be invisible again!!!
To get back the privacy of my life...
Or just bask in the glory of visibility
This is something that I often ask myself
And to the person I see in the mirror

Invisible to the world
Invisible to all around
Especially to those..
By whom I want to be seen
From what I was
What I really am...
To what I think...what I feel!!!
But then again
To them... Invisible I am

Invisible to the world
Invisible to all around
But does it really matter?...
Whether I am invisible or not!..
For I am visible to me
Even though just in the mirror
Thankful for I can atleast see myself...
In this world full of invisibility
From what I was...To what I have become...

Tuesday 6 April 2010

The fathomless pain you feel,

When your heart breaks into a million pieces…

The blankness of your mind,

The endless stream of tears flowing uncontrollably…

Your indecisiveness and the dilemma of whom to follow,

In the argument between your head and your heart…

The hopelessness after realizing no matters what,

This still would‘ve happened nothing could stop it…

The helplessness of the situation,

Burdening you down …

The emptiness in your life,

The vacuum created in it…

Your aimless eyes staring,

Searching something to hold on to…

The expressionless face smiling,

Hiding the sadness of the situation you are in…

Saturday 20 March 2010

Lost am I today…

Lost, for I can’t find you

Lost for I can’t see me in your eyes..

Lost for I can’t feel me in your arms

Lost for I can’t see me in your mind

Lost for I cannot feel myself in your heart

Lost I am today

Lost for I cannot find me

Lost for I can’t see you in me

Lost for I can’t find you in my arms

Lost for I can’t see you in my mind

Lost for I cannot feel you anymore in my heart

Lost am I

For lost are we

Lost, for in the future

We cannot, us with each other see

But still we are together

Even though we shouldn’t be

Lost we are together…

Just in different ways, you and me….

Friday 26 February 2010

What have you done to me, my love…?


I am sane, but I know not what I exactly feel….
What have you done to me … my love?
Here I am sitting alone…
Watching the river flow…
Wondering why my thoughts,
Which otherwise think of a million different things …
Are thinking of you today…
What have you done to me my love?...
Every single memory of the moments spent by your side…
The feel of your touch,
The beauty of you smile
The gentleness, the dept in your eyes
The peace and calm in the air around you…
What have you done to me my love?...
We do not share many words…
Neither do we often see each other…
But when with you …
I find myself alive again…
I find myself smile again…
What have you done to me my love? ...
I used to find peace
Watching the river flow…
But now I find the same peace and quiet…
When I think of you.
What have you done to me my love?
I wasn’t supposed to fall in love with you….
I am sane, but I know not what I exactly feel….
What have you done to me, my love…?
What have you done to me, my love…?

Friday 5 February 2010

Thursday 21 January 2010

Late in the night

Just happened to think of you…

I really don’t know why?…

Even though the memories are very very few…


The time, the moments

We spent together

I really don’t know why?...

I wish not to, but I always remember…


Where are you?

And how have you been?

I really don’t know why?...

I always wanted to talk but never knew where to begin…


Didn’t know what to say

So I just kept quite…

I really don’t know why?...

I didn’t turn back and fight…


What would I fight for?

Each moment with you was so good…

I really don’t know why?...

Our feelings, our emotions I so misunderstood ...


But with each thought of yours

My heart still misses a beat…

I really don’t know why?...

Thinking of you makes me feel …replete….