had written it some time back just found it so thought to share....

as days pass by...

i ask my life

what have i yet to see

My life as always replies to me

Wait and watch... full of surprises it will be...

but never does it tell me 

whether the surprises will be good or bad...

or will they be happy or will they be sad...

and as life passes me by...

i wonder ... is this what was in store for me...

 i welcome it with open arms 

and yes a little fear deep within

for when the tears start to flow

life seems to move very slow...

its seems that the time had stopped around me...

but i can see others move

busy on their way...

each and everyday

but i am still there..... wondering...

and then sometimes i wonder if i wonder a lot...

and i don't know.. its just a thought

and then a miracle....

i discover a me...

find all the colors

that i want in my life to be

and then again a shower of tears...

again the heart filled with fears...

this follows again and again....

i don't know where it started ...

i don't know when it will end....

then appears a ray of hope...

followed by thunder storms...

life is like nightmares in all its forms...

and then finally my ship reaches new shore...

i spread my wings and upward i soar 

into the bright sunlight... tears no more

but then again a dark cloud some how i see

hidden in the vast skies waiting for me

in it holds tears from which i know i cannot flee 

i don't want to fall

neither be in front of a wall

not knowing what to do

fear lingering within...

feeling very blue....

and then again at times i feel...

do i take life by the hand 

and go where i want  to......

sometime i think this is long overdue...

alone into a world all new....

i tell my life stay next to me 

look at the colors ...

see how beautiful u can be....

the colors the laughters 

the happily ever afters...

now my life has to decide...

whether to give me tears 

or share a smile by my side...

come my life come with me... 

a whole new world for us to see 

everything has changed 

nothing is the same...

tired am i to see u so lost...

alone i left with no one to be my guide...

and discovered the paths i had left untried....

with these tears i am tired 

it has been quite a while....

now i really wish to smile ...

i really want to smile.......